When
Luke left Doctor Livesey's office he was still very upset... he was
also still very nude. Hardly aware of what was happening, Luke was
escorted by Nurse Pilbeam and Michelle, the attractive young intern
along a corridor. Slowly Luke realised they were heading in the
direction of the reception area from which he could distinctly hear the
sound of voices. The waiting-room was still very busy.
"Please, nurse... where are my clothes?!" Luke said as he began to panic at the thought of being seen in the nude.
"Don't you worry about your clothes, Luke... let's get you cleaned up first..." Nurse Pilbeam replied.
"Your mum's looking after your clothes, Luke," Michelle added helpfully.
Luke stopped. Nurse Pilbeam tightened her grip on Luke's arm.
“But… please, nurse… can’t I have a gown or something?” Luke said as he stood stock-still in the corridor.
“Oh, we don’t have time for that, Luke… let’s get you cleaned up first, then we'll think about finding you a gown…”
This
didn't make any sense to Luke, who thought the whole reason for getting
him cleaned up was so he could get his clothes back.
“We’re just going to take you into one of the side cubicles,” Michelle assured Luke, “No one’s going to see you…”
Luke
hadn’t even noticed the small cubicles which were just off the main
reception area. The cubicles were simple affairs consisting of overhead
rails from which hung thin three-quarter length curtains. They were mainly
used when patients needed somewhere private to undress and change into
gowns, although the cubicles were also used by the nurses to carry out
basic examination procedures.
Michelle
pointed to the cubicle they were taking Luke to and repeated her
assurance that no one would see them as long as Luke didn’t dawdle in
the corridor.
Luke
could see the cubicle a few yards away. It was the last one, at the end
of the row, just round the corner from reception and at that very
moment another nurse swept in from the waiting area followed a girl of
Michelle’s age with her mother who was calling to her two younger
children to get a move on. Luke was trapped in the corridor, since the
nurse and the family group was between him and the cubicle to which he
was being taken. Nurse Pilbeam held one of his arms and Michelle the
other, so Luke was unable to cover himself. Boy-stuff was still dangling
from his little penis and a trail of glistening slime could be seen
clearly on his legs. His tear-stained face was a portrait of misery.
“Oh… I’m sorry, Nurse Pilbeam,” the nurse said when she saw the nude Luke, “I didn’t realise you were with a patient…”
“No
need to apologise… you weren’t to know,” Nurse Pilbeam replied, “We’re
just taking Luke to be cleaned up… as you can you see, he’s had a
little, ahem, accident during his examination with Doctor Livesey…” She
leaned forward and lowered her voice, although her words could still be
heard clearly, “... PE… you know what boys are when they get over
excited…”
“You
don’t need to tell me,” the other nurse smiled in sympathy, “... why
the other day we were taking a sperm sample from a boy and we didn’t
even have time to get the sample jar over his penis… mind you his penis
was a lot bigger than Luke’s… a lot, lot bigger… we could hardly manage to get the
boy’s penis into the sample jar it was so big...”
This conversation gave mum and the children plenty of time to take stock of Luke.
“Mum… what’s that stuff…?”
“Mum… why’s he got such a small willy…?”
Luke
was appalled. No one seemed at all bothered that he was standing there
bare-nude. The children continued to ask highly personal and acutely
embarrassing questions that made Luke squirm. It seemed as if his
inadequacies were a fit topic of public conversation, without regard to
his feelings. The children’s mother didn’t even make eye contact with
Luke, so little did she care about his feelings. She was more concerned
that her children would get any of that ‘nasty stuff’ on their clothes
as they squeezed past Luke in the corridor.
Finally
Luke was taken into the small cubicle. Michelle half-heartedly pulled
the thin curtains behind the three of them as she and Nurse Pilbeam set
about cleaning up Luke. Luke was even more aware that just the other
side of the curtain people were awaiting their appointments. He could
hear clearly the sound of their voices and it followed that those in the
waiting-room could hear just as clearly whatever was said in Luke’s
cubicle.
“What is PE?” Michelle asked Nurse Pilbeam.
“That’s
when a boy ejaculates too quickly… it means Premature Ejaculation,”
Nurse Pilbeam explained, seemingly unconcerned that there was nothing
but a flimsy curtain between them and the clinic waiting area. “If you
recall what happened, Michelle, Doctor Livesey told Luke to stop
masturbating and to put his hands back on top of his head. Normally we
would expect to observe the boy maintain self-control… but as you saw,
Luke was unable to stop himself from ejaculating, even though he’d taken
his fingers away from his penis… sperm squirted without any physical
stimulation… and that’s what we call premature ejaculation.”
Michelle nodded thoughtfully. Clearly there was much to learn.
Luke
was increasingly conscious of his nude state and was about to ask Nurse
Pilbeam about a gown when the curtain was jerked back. Luke’s mum stood
framed in the entrance. It didn’t take a genius to figure out that she
was furious.
“Luke Browne…!” she said at the top of her voice, “Luke Browne… I have never been so ashamed of you…!”
There
was a slight pause as mum got her breath. Luke was aware of the sudden
silence. The noise from the waiting-room had stopped and Luke knew that
everyone was listening… waiting to hear what mum had to say. They didn’t
have to wait long.
“Luke
Browne… how could you stand there and… and… play with your little
tiddler in front of Doctor Livesey… you know what I think about boys who
play with their little tiddlers…. how many times have I had to tell you
off? Luke Browne you are nineteen years old… it’s no good telling the
doctor you masturbate as if you think using big words to sound clever makes it alright… well it isn’t alright…”
“...
but, mummy… Doctor Livesey…” Luke said trying to get a word in… “...
please, mummy… everyone will hear…” … and trying make mum understand
there was a roomful of patients a few feet away listening to everything
being said.
“It’s
no use trying to make excuses, Luke Browne, you're the one that
disgraced yourself… you’re the one who played with his little tiddler in
front of the doctor and… and…”
“...
ejaculated,” Nurse Pilbeam helpfully finished Mrs Browne’s sentence
when it became clear Luke’s mum was unable to bring herself to say the
word.
“Thank you, nurse… yes… disgraced yourself…”
Then, before Luke realised what was happening, but at the precise moment it occurred to him that mum was not
carrying any of his clothes, he found himself suddenly pulled by the
ear, twisted round and pushed forwards over a rubber topped bench. The
stinging smacks of mum’s hand on his bare bottom made Luke gasp, but before long he was
crying out unashamedly, begging mum to stop. But mum was incensed by her
son’s behaviour. The harder the spanks got the louder they became and
Luke, nineteen years old, ended up pleading like a little boy that he
wouldn’t do it again… that he would be good… but please, mummy, please stop…
Beyond
the confines of the little cubicle other mums smiled and nodded
knowingly to one another. They recognised the sound of a good spanking.
They knew that Luke Browne was getting just what he deserved. Fancy
letting his mum down like that… and in front of the doctor too. These
mums neither knew nor cared what the circumstances of Luke’s fall from
grace were, but they knew that mums don’t spank their boys for nothing.
Nurse
Pilbeam had seen it all before, but Michelle stood transfixed by the
sight of Luke’s bottom turning red under the onslaught of mum’s tireless
hand. Just when the young intern thought Luke’s spanking was over, she
was astonished to see mum’s hand slide down Luke’s legs. Mum began to
smack the backs of her son’s thighs and it soon became clear to Michelle
that this was even more effective than a spanked bottom.
"Just
you wait until I get you home, Luke Browne," mum said, reinforcing
every word with a spank, "Just... you... wait. You and I are going to
have a discussion about your behaviour..."
Luke begged his mum to stop.
“I’ve
been far too lenient with you, Luke Browne… There are going to be some
changes and for a start you are going to have a proper pyjama-time
again… what on earth I thought I was doing letting you stay up late and
put on your own pyjamas… I can see that a nine o’clock bedtime was far
too late… well, that’s going to change…”
The
spanks continued to rain down on Luke’s bottom and thighs while mum
carried on with her tirade. It was an education for Michelle and she
learnt all about Luke’s discipline at home under the strict control of
Mrs Browne. So too did the many listeners in the waiting-room… not that
this concerned Luke’s mum one little bit. As for Luke, his mind was so
focussed on his blisteringly hot bottom and thighs, that he was barely
aware of his audience anymore.
Mum’s spanking finally drew to a close, but she still had a few things to say to her son:
“Have you been putting your pyjamas on properly before you get into bed?”
Luke
shook his head and through the tears which ran freely down his face,
told mum that sometimes he didn’t button up his pyjama jacket and
sometimes left it off altogether.
“Just as I thought… what about your pyjama-bottoms?” mum asked.
Luke admitted that sometimes he’d left off his pyjama-bottoms and once or twice he had even gone to bed in the nude!
Mum was beside herself… horrified at what Luke had been up to in his bedroom.
“... and is that when you started playing with your little dinky-tidler?”
Luke
was so ashamed, but what could he do but admit the truth. He had been
masturbating and that’s why he’d tried to be careful not to leave any
evidence on his pyjamas. Damp patches and stains on a boy’s pyjamas are a
sure sign to any mum that their son has been up to no good… as Luke
well knew.
"Well, that
silly naughtiness is going to stop right now... and from now on you are
going to have proper pyjama and bed-times again... do you understand?"
"Yes,
mummy..." Luke replied, more than a little meekly. Luke was once more
aware of the unseen audience on the other side of the thin curtain and
he only had to glance to one side to see Michelle had witnessed every
painful second of his spanking. He was, of, course, still bare-nude and
all Luke wanted was to be allowed to get dressed, go home and face
whatever punitive measures mum proposed to put in place. But mum still
wasn't finished with him.
"I
should never have let you get ready for bed yourself… How any boy, let
alone a boy of nineteen can think he can get away with the sort of
behaviour... the sort of depraved
behaviour you have seen fit to indulge in, is quite beyond me... but if
you're going to behave like a little boy, then you will be treated like
a little boy and..."
Luke
knew what was coming and pleaded... pleaded desperately: "... oh,
please...please, mummy... no... please don’t... oh no please, mummy... I
won't do it ever again... please, I promise..."
"It's too late for any of that nonsense... and my mind is made up. I am putting you back into short trousers..."
"Oh, mummy... no... please don’t… not short trousers mummy..."
"Yes,
Luke... I am putting you straight back into short trousers and you'd
better buck your ideas up, because from now on you're not going to let
out of my sight... do you understand, Luke?"
Luke hung his head. He knew mummy was right. He had been a very, very naughty boy. "Yes, mummy..." he replied.
"Ahem..."
Michelle coughed to attract Mrs Browne's attention. "I couldn't help
overhearing what you were saying to Luke just now..." Luke looked at
Michelle and thought she would have to have had cotton wool in her ears
not to overhear what his mum had said to him.
"Yes, dear," mum said in a gentle tone of voice quite at odds to the one she'd been using to address her son, "What is it?"
"Well,
I couldn't help hearing you say that you were not going to let Luke out
of your sight... and I was wondering if I could be of any help... I'd
be happy to babysit Luke for you," Michelle said, offering her services.
Mrs Browne beamed: "I must say that is very thoughtful of you, Michelle... Isn't that thoughtful of Michelle, Luke?"
What else could Luke say? "Yes, mummy..." came the reply from the chastened boy.
"That would be a great help, Michelle, and a great weight off my mind to have such a sensible girl looking after Luke… but are you sure? Luke can be very demanding."
Nurse
Pilbeam smiled and assured Mrs Browne that Michelle was one of the best
and most diligent interns they’d had working at the clinic for a long
time. It was Michelle’s turn to blush… but for entirely different
reasons from Luke’s! However, the thought of Michelle being given the
authority of a babysitter, and all that entailed, was anathema to Luke.
He knew from experience what mum had planned. He knew his life wouldn’t
be his own again and the last thing he wanted was a young girl such as
Michelle witnessing and no doubt adding to his humiliations. Luke knew
it was futile, but that didn’t stop him pleading with his mum that he
didn’t need a babysitter.
“Please, mummy… I’m nineteen… I don’t need a babysitter now…”
“That is for me to decide, Luke… and on the evidence I should say that you cannot be trusted to behave yourself without one.”
“Yes, mummy…”
“... and I’m going to put Michelle in charge of your pocket-money…”
Luke’s
mouth fell open as his last little bit of independence disappeared. He
was about to utter a protest when he was interrupted:
“How
is everything going in here?” the cheerful voice of another of the
nurses was heard as she stood in the open entrance to the cubicle,
“Doctor Livesey asked me to give you these clothes for Luke to wear…”
Luke took one look at what the nurse was holding and stuttered: “But… but… that’s not… they... they’re not my clothes…”
The
nurse ignored Luke and continued talking to Mrs Browne: “We always have
spare clothes at the clinic… in case of… well, just in case…” And with
that she placed the little pile of clothes on the bench over which Luke
had so recently been bent for his spanking.
“Doctor
Livesey and I had a little talk,” mum explained, “and we agreed that
the sooner you were brought back under control the better. I told Doctor
Livesey that I thought I’d made a mistake in allowing you to wear long
trousers and she agreed..."
"But, mummy..."
"Luke, will you stop interrupting me... the more you carry on, the more I am convinced you need a firm hand..."
Nurse Pilbeam offered her assistance: "Would it help if Michelle and I got Luke dressed?"
"I
think you'd better had... I can see Luke is becoming fractious," mum
thanked Nurse Pilbeam and then turned to face Luke once more. She wagged
a finger in his face: "Any more of this silly nonsense and I'll be
dusting off the discipline strap the minute I get you home... do I make
myself clear?"
"Yes,
mummy," Luke said and nervously reached around to rub his sore bottom.
Luke had not had the dubious pleasure of an appointment with mum's
discipline strap for some considerable time and he was not anxious to
renew the acquaintance.
Michelle
was of the opinion that not only had mum made herself perfectly clear
to Luke, she had also made herself loud and clear to just about everyone
else in the clinic. Nurse Pilbeam caught Michelle’s eye and nodded in
the direction of the little pile of clothes. Michelle moved over towards
the bench and examined the clothes Luke would soon be wearing. Michelle
was taken aback at how infantile they were; a tiny pair of shortalls
which wouldn’t have been quite so noticeable if they hadn’t been made of
a sort of light pink synthetic plush-velvet embroidered with sunflowers
and daisies. Michelle held the shortalls up and was puzzled to find
that despite the ludicrously childish and extremely brief design, they
looked to be a perfectly adequate size for the tall, lanky nineteen year
old Luke.
“Oh…
aren’t they sweet?” Michelle said as she held them up in front of Luke
to confirm that indeed she and Nurse Pilbeam would have no trouble
putting Luke into his new outfit.
Luke
was horrified. He hadn’t set eyes on anything as humiliating as the shortalls
Michelle was holding up in a long time, not since… and Luke shuddered at
the memory… not since the sailor-suit his aunty had made for him. Luke
had been fourteen at the time and although the sailor-suit (which had
featured a style of shorts popular at the time and known as hot-pants)
had been made for him to wear at a wedding, Luke found himself being made to wear
the sailor-suit at every possible opportunity. Whenever Luke and his
mum went visiting he would be sure to hear the words: “...just pop upstairs,
Luke and put on your nice sailor-suit… Mrs Gaumont asked to see you wearing
it especially…”
Luke
was only a few days short of his sixteenth birthday when he’d last worn
his sailor-suit. It was still hanging up in his wardrobe. As Luke now
realised, mum had left the sailor-suit there for a purpose, which was to
remind him to behave himself, something he’d singly failed to do. Mum
had also left the single-strap maryjanes which Luke hated and thought
looked so effeminate, particularly when worn with very
girly lace trimmed white ankle socks. But aunty had insisted they were a
perfect match for the outfit and poo-pooed any suggestion from Luke
that they made him look like a sissy. It was probably fortunate Luke had
such smooth legs, but perhaps that’s why he complained so much about
the shortness of the shorts as well as the little lacy ankle socks,
since these immediately drew everyone's attention to Luke’s legs. Even
at the age of nineteen Luke still had perfectly smooth legs and hardly
any body-hair… even less now that Nurse Pilbeam and Michelle had removed
his pubic hair!
Luke’s
sixteenth birthday had been marked by his transition into long
trousers. This rite of passage, so eagerly awaited, had been delayed for
reasons not altogether clear to Luke. When all around him boys were
permitted longs at ever younger ages, mum had resolutely kept Luke in
short trousers for longer than all of Luke’s contemporaries. And now, as
Luke stood bare-nude in the confined space of the cubicle at Doctor
Livesey’s clinic, mum had told him that he was to be put back into short
trousers! He wondered what else was in store for him. Luke was only too
well aware his mum would have had plenty of time to talk to Doctor
Livesey about his ‘problems’.
And
of course Luke was quite correct. Doctor Livesey expressed her concerns
about the smallness of Luke’s penis; how she felt that this was the
cause of his anxiety when he was required to be fully nude in the
company of younger boys, all of whom by the sound of it, were far better
endowed than Luke.
“We
may as well face it, Mrs Browne, Luke’s penis is humiliatingly small,”
Doctor Livesey observed, “How on earth anyone can manage to keep a
straight face when they see that sad little button peeking out from
between his legs, I’ve no idea. I think it says a lot for Michelle that
she maintained a professional composure far beyond my expectations… that
young lady will do well should she decide to stay with us here at the
clinic.”
“However,
I do feel that I owe you an apology, Mrs Browne, for encouraging Luke
to masturbate, but I plead professional curiosity. I was intrigued to
observe how a boy with such a tiny little penis masturbated. I confess
that when I saw how Luke could only manage to stimulate himself with a
thumb and one finger, I nearly burst out laughing myself… those little
jerks of his wrist made him look so ridiculous… and then, in the end, he
was completely unable to control himself…”
“I’m sorry about that, doctor,” Mrs Brown said, “Luke was very naughty to… to… let himself do it...” she paused and shuddered, “Quite disgusting… He won’t be doing that again in a hurry…”
“You
mustn’t apologise, Mrs Browne. I’m sure that Luke just got himself
worked up about everything… the teasing… his examination… the need to
remove his pubic hair… and I suspect that if you are as vigilant as I
feel sure you are, Luke would have had very little opportunity to play
with his little penis before he came for his appointment today.”
“I
try my best, Doctor Livesey… but I’m sure any mother will tell you, you
have to be vigilant… there’s no escaping the fact that… well, I don’t
have to spell it out to you, doctor, but boys will be boys…” Mrs Browne
said and then reflected, “Perhaps I have been too lenient with Luke of
late… giving him small privileges, allowing him to wear long trousers…”
“Quite
so, Mrs Browne,” Doctor Livesey agreed, “I’m sure I can rely on you to
keep a close watch on Luke, but in the meantime, we need to address the
cause of his problem… why he is presenting all the symptoms of extreme
anxiety. I think Luke needs our help to enable him to confront these
anxieties…”
“What do you suggest, doctor?” Mrs Browne asked.
“I’m
very much of the opinion that Luke has developed a neurosis… he sees a
younger boy with a penis that is longer and altogether much larger than
his own and this triggers a reaction which manifests itself through envy
and shame… envy of the young boy standing in front of him with a bigger penis and shame of his own much smaller
penis. Of course in his position at the swimming club Luke is being
constantly exposed to boys, younger than himself, who have noticeably
longer penises. If you remember, Mrs Browne, I asked your son
specifically whether there were any boys at the club whose penis was as
small as his own… and he told us that there were none. Now, with a boy
like Luke who has become fixated by the small size of his own penis,
this contact simply reinforces his already fragile ego to such an extent
that Luke, bizarre as it may seem, actually feels himself to be
unworthy of the position he holds at the swimming club... and underlying
this behaviour is Luke's belief that it is the younger boys who should
be in charge of him, not he of them…”
“I beg your pardon, doctor…?”
“Put
it another way, Luke with his small penis, believes himself to be
inferior to the younger boy with the larger penis… in fact Luke views
himself, having a small penis, as an immature little boy and he wants to
be treated like a little boy…”
Doctor
Livesey continued: “It is my view that while Luke’s involvement with
the boys’ swimming club undoubtedly has its benefits, it is his close
contact with the young boys and the associated responsibilities that has
led to a re-emergence of his latent insecurities…”
“Is there anything we can do?” Mrs Browne asked.
“I
would strongly suggest you start by admonishing Luke for his behaviour
today,” Doctor Livesey said, “We need to send your son a strong signal
that we understand his needs and that can only be achieved by treating
him as a little boy again. He needs his mummy to tell him what to do and
how to behave…”
The
scales fell from Mrs Browne's eyes and she thanked the doctor for her
time and left the office. With a renewed sense of purpose Mrs Browne
walked down the corridor towards the cubicle where Luke was being
cleaned up after disgracing himself in front of Doctor Livesey, his mum,
Nurse Pilbeam and Michelle.
*
Luke
was at last dressed. He had been horrified when he saw the shortalls,
singlet and red plastic play-sandals, but after the severe talking-to
and spanking from his mum, Luke was in no position to argue with
Nurse Pilbeam as she and Michelle put him into his new clothes.
Then all Luke had to do was walk back out through the busy waiting-room and wait while his mum talked to the receptionist. As Luke did so he could feel everyone’s eyes upon him. He was conscious not only of his infantile clothes, but also the red marks of his spanking clearly visible on the backs of his thighs. But most of all Luke stood there knowing everyone looking at him had heard every word spoken while he was in the cubicle.